Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Section of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to generally share wasn’t yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have enable you to see inside. acim teacher Don’t want it troubling the mind, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I could not think of something that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’peace of mind, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.
You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.